Well, it's another New Year...it's amazing how fast the years fly by! And to no avail, I have yet to get used to it. I wish at times I could freeze time and not move, not budge...just revel in the moment and not have it slip away. Having kids only makes the realization of time going by much too quickly more stark and more real. I can't even imagine what I will feel like when these guys are fully grown and having families of their own! Mixed emotions, I'm sure. On one hand it will be pure heaven having the "me" time I have so selfishly yearned for but on the other hand life, I'm sure will seem a tad bit empty. Almost without purpose, knowing my kids can make their day to day decisions without me. I won't miss the sleepless nights, taking temperatures, doing the 3:00 a.m. laundry shuffle, washing a little one's favorite mankie now that it is drenched in puke, being woke up by a child's scream only to realize they just needed a drink of water...oh, these are the days, or so they say!
I am actually feeling unusually agitated today; not sure why really. As much as I love being a mother there are times I just want to close my eyes and take a break. Oh, I love my children...they are my sweetest blessings in life, by far. But for just one moment, one tiny, little precious moment I would love to just be "me". So selfish I know...funny thing is, there will come a day when I get all the "me" time in the world and that is when the reality will sink in, that these truly were the days. It's the past tense of the word are, changing to were that scares me but at the same thrills me!
On to motherly duties...I have 2 hungry little boys in need of lunch and one in need of a diaper change and nap. After that laundry to haul and perhaps back to New Moon. Argh! New Moon is a great book so far (Stephanie Myers is BRILLIANT!) but I am getting roped in, like everyone said I would. The love story of Edward and Bella can't be over...it just CAN'T! Well, common sense tells me it's not since there are 2 other volumes in the series but still, MAN! It is bothering me to no end...perhaps that is the source of my agitation. Sheesh, am I pathetic, or what?
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